phone

So today Ned and I got new phones. I don't really like phones (that's an understatement...) actually I loath them, mostly beacaalking on the phone makes me really anxious, the thing is that aside of a few work calls a month, Ned does all of our interactions. So I got a new phone now, with texts and emails and facebook. I really hope it' make me connect more with the world.

sort of down

Couldn't sleep last night, or rather fall asleep at 10:00, woke up at midnight and couldn't go back to sleep till around 8:30 AM, I was watching the sunset and reading a book, trying to get my eyes tired enough to close on their own, and for my mind to stop working, it didn't happened until there was light outside, noise and people taking on the hallway and the feeling of actual morning in the air.

I know that how i'm feeling right now is mostly because I'm tired and cranky.

I had a dream last night in which for a strange chair of event, me and Ned just had to have ice cream for every meal for a day, someone bought it for us and it was impolite to refuse, then we were going somewhere and the only food place was an ice cream store and again, we just had to have it, and so forth and so on. It started fun but as the day progressed, in my dream, I felt more and more out of control, more and more fat and anxious about eating all that ice cream, in the dream I was trying to find a way to go back and not eat it, though I knew I couldn't.

I woke up feeling bad about the apple crumble and ice cream from the night before, and feeling bad about obsessing about food.

I've been spending most of the day in front of the computer doing nothing. Trying to finish a million small projects and giving up after 5 minutes, going back to reading the news, reading gossip, playing stupid farmville, checking flickr and getting annoyed about no new comments and no new views, same for blogger, same for Etsy.

I made food, a batch of chilly from sprouted beans, collared greens that were on the verge of going bad, a large put of rice and lentils, now the fridge is full of Tupperwares filled with cooked food we'll probably never eat.

I have to finish this design project, do the blog ruffle, pack some etsy packages, dammit, answer e-mails, which I seem to never do anymore and probably everyone i know think I don't love them anymore. I have a project all finished and ready to be cut, shot and listed on etsy, and I can't seem to have enough energy for the 10 minutes it will take to finish it. I feel like such a slacker.

Scanning some old drawings

The moleskin exchange really made me want to do more drawing in my own moleskin. I've been working on a series of drawings of the different animals and people of the zodiac signs for the past few weeks, which I finished today, I wanted to scan them tonight ,but there's just not enough time for all of them, So instead I scanned some older pieces from the moleskin, and tomorrow, I hope to scan the rest.

2 more pages in this book, which I hope to finish before my big moleskin order arrive from Amazon. I got carried away and ordered 3 book (plus one for Ned, but there's a good chance he won't use it and it'll be mine also...)

Finally some work done

Finished a design that I really like for Ned's mom trunk show, I hope she'll like it to, it might be a little too Christmasy for the event - I do like it though! This is a detail from the back of the postcard.

Tiny paintings

Cause I didn't feel like working on Ned's mom trunkshow postcard, or to write e-mails, or to work on Case's website, or on the two design projects I'm supposed to finish, or to finish a submission for a photography competition, or to make stuff for Christmas for the store.

It's 1:17 AM and I really should get to work...

Anchor song

I've been wanted to make something for A5 magazine ever since they published their new topic for open call. It was remix - an artistic response to a song. The thing is there are so many amazings songs in the world and everytime I had some idea I had to reject it right away feeling like I'm neglecting the one perfect song that I should choose.

I almost gave up on the whole thing, actually I did give up on it already.

Then, on the weekend as I was working on Ashes' book for moleskin exchange, I found myself illustrating a song by Bjork, called anchor song. It's not the most important song in the world, nor is it my favorite, but I do love it and it makes me think of myself at age 20, when I started art school, lived with a friend in a 5th floor apartment with no elevator and listened to this album over and over again. I can't believe that was 14 years ago...

And so I made another version for the illustration in ashes' book today, and send it to the magazine in the nick of time.

I live by the ocean
And during the night
I dive into it
Down to the bottom
Underneath all currents
And drop my anchor
This is where I´m staying
This is my home

Work in process

All I've been doing in the past couple of days is working on the moleskin exchange sketchbook, and then Tanya's creative mind journal project. I probably should be doing other stuff - working on my etsy store, finishing some orders, working on a couple of freelance design projects, and probably, more then anything else, answer e-mails, Which I haven't done in a really long time.

I've also really neglected the attempt to find a place to stay in Israel, I know Ned's frustrated with me about that, and I am to, but I just don't feel like talking or communicating at all lately, and all I want ot do is draw and paint all the time and do nothing else.

One of the coolest thing about working on the sketchbooks projects is that it got me to try new things, mostly working on 2 pages in one go, and making 2 drawings related to one another and not just stand on their own.